Friday, September 11, 2009

I will never forget.


Reposted from 9/11/08 - don't think I can say it better.

I'm greatly inspired by President Franklin Delano Roosevelt. A visit to his memorial in Washington this summer really resonated with me. On this day of rememberance some his famous words more adequately express how I feel.


If civilization is to survive, we must cultivate the science of human relationships - the ability of all peoples, of all kinds, to live together, in the same world at peace.


Our national determination to keep free of foreign wars and foreign entanglements cannot prevent us from feeling deep concern when ideals and principles that we have cherished are challenged.


Physical strength can never permanently withstand the impact of spiritual force.


The point in history at which we stand is full of promise and danger. The world will either move forward toward unity and widely shared prosperity - or it will move apart.


The test of our progress is not whether we add to the abundance of those who have much. It is whether we provide enough to those who have little.


-Franklin Delano Roosevelt



Friday, September 4, 2009

This never gets old!

We aren't going to Athens this weekend - but I'm in Stillwater with my Dawgs in spirit!

Seven Notes on a Trumpet
by ibdawg
It is Saturday.
All week long you've waited. What started out on Monday as a tight feeling in the pit of your stomach, is now a 10,000-pound gorilla tap dancing on your spleen.

You've done your best to concentrate and do your job this week. You made an honest effort to put "all this" on the back burner and focus on "the important things", but to no avail. The images just kept coming: bright fall sunshine and crisp autumn air painting the classic city in Hellenic splendor. The aroma of a thousand tailgate feasts wafting through the air, and everywhere, everything - - Red and Black.

You've gone from sports page to magazine, to news show, to internet site, and in every conversation in every office, diner, hallway and cubicle you entered this week, you have tried to reassure yourself of the outcome of this week's contest. But in your heart of hearts you know there's only one way to settle it: 'Dawgs gotta tee it up and play.

And now it's Saturday.
As you contemplate the day ahead an image of The Hedges flashes in your mind; green grass, crisp white lines, sunshine ricocheting off the instruments of the Redcoats, and 90,000 - plus fans volleying "GEORGIA - BULLDAWGS" back and forth across the stadium, rattling you all the way to the soles of you feet. You swing out of bed, heart pounding. Grab a cuppa Joe and a quick shower as you prepare for the pilgrimage to A-town. You slam in a tape of the Redcoat Band and crank up the stereo. "Hail" bounces off the walls while you don your lucky shirt (socks, hat, pants, whatever) as you perform the pre-game ritual.

The phone rings - - Yes, you're up. Yes, you have the tickets. "No, my cooler's full, we'll have to take yours, too. I'll stop and get some ice on the way." Gather up the tailgate supplies and load the car. Why does it take so damn long for everyone else to get ready? You check and recheck the supplies - - table, chairs, food. No need to check the drinks, no way those'll get left behind! Cigars? Check. Binoculars? Check. Camera? Blanket? Check. 'Dawg flags secured to the car and ready to fly - - all packed up and ready.

Finally! Time to go. You reassure yourself for the millionth time that the tickets are in your pocket and you "saddle up." Headed to The Classic City. Dawg-patch, USA. Larry and Scott and Loran on the pre-game show, telling you how good these guys are gonna be (yeah, like you need something else to worry about!). Loran threads in a history lesson, and hey - - an interview with one of the Dawgs from way back when. Always wondered what happened to him. Corporate exec in N'awlins. Who'd of ever guessed? You smile as you remember a moment of glory for him in a past game. On the radio, James Brown is hammering out, "Dooley's Junkyard Dawgs" and as your friends get in the car, you all sing along.

En route, cars pass by you by: they're singing too, and barking as they pass. It's a rolling party and the gangs all there! You sense the excitement as it grows, mile by mile. Traffic slows to a crawl somewhere near the Clarke County line. It is a long, happy, red and black serpent winding its way toward Sanford Stadium. Dawg flags and bumper stickers. "Boiled P-nuts just ahead". White shoe polish on windshields proclaiming the magnificence of the Dawg nation, and snatches of Larry pleading from the speakers of passing cars and trucks: "He's at the 40, the 35, the 30, run Lindsey, run!"And your heart races, your gut tightens - - you just can't wait to be there.

Now on final approach - - you turn down Lumpkin (Milledge, Baxter . . . ) homing in on THE tailgate spot. Other friends are already there and as you get out of the car, it hits you!
Carnival atmosphere.
Red. Black. "How 'bout them Dawgs!" "They Hell ain't they?"
The fragrance of charcoal heating up and barbecue on the grill. Opposing fans drifting by, good natured ribbing , and "hey, y'all eat some of this, we got plenty". Introductions all around, and then serious discussion and comparison of the teams. Who's hurt? How fast is that wide receiver? That O-line looked awesome last week. Y'all gonna keep that coach around next year?"

Drinks with old friends and new ones. Stories about games gone by. "Man, they've added a lot to the campus since the last time I was here!" and "I don't think they grew 'em like that when I was in school!" Have another drink. Have some more barbecue. And another drink. Or two. And finally, pack it all up, it's time to go! Man, you really didn't need that extra barbecue, that 10,000 pound gorilla is kicking to get out right now!

You merge into the red and black sea that is moving inexorably towardSanford - the Temple of the Dawg. The sun is as bright as you imagined it would be. Not too hot, not too cold. 'A crisp, fall day' as Larry might describe it. Red and Black everywhere. Sequined coats and polyester pants. Hats. Shorts. Boots. Faces painted with renderings of Uga and "Dawgs". "Buy a program?" "You bet." And, "Oh man, I gotta have that tee-shirt." Barking Dawgs everywhere as you're more or less towed towards the stadium by the throng of the Dawg nation.

But underneath the bridge, near the student center, the crowd stops. And there stands the band in all its splendor, Redcoats blazing like fire. Sequins from the Flag Corps' costumes glittering like diamonds. Notes and rifts fill the air as they mill around, warming up, waiting impatiently for the spectacle to begin. They pose for photos with family and friends. Kisses and hugs all around. "There's Uga!" and everyone tries to get a look and a photo. "Hey Mr. Seiler." "Hey Coach!" Kids run around at your knees; stadium urchins already beginning their collection of souvenirs from a day in Dawgpatch.

The moment freezes in your mind as you notice that somewhere close to the middle of the band, beneath the crowd assembled on the bridge, one lone trumpet swings skyward. . .
The atmosphere is instantly charged with about a gazillion volts, and the crowd waits expectantly.

You KNOW what's coming and still, you can't control your reaction. Goosebumps rise on your arms. The hair on your neck stands straight up and a lump forms in your throat. Your eyes well up. All those memories of all those years and all those Dawgs suddenly converge in your mind and your chest feels like it's gonna explode. And then come the seven notes. . .
Seven plaintive notes, rendered slowly, proudly, reverently into the heavens."Mine eyes have seen the glory. . ."

And Dawgs all around you, and above you begin to answer back. Just one or two at first, but it continues to grow like a pack of hungry wolves, becoming louder and wilder, until the bridge itself threatens to collapse from the clamor! And then the rest of the band joins in, and suddenly the whole damn world is ablaze with the fire that burns in the breast of the Dawg Nation.
GLORY. Not "The Battle Hymn of the Republic". Not the fight song of some backwoods pretender in Alabama. GLORY, the battle hymn of the Dawg Nation!.
Glory, Glory to Ol' Georgia.

The uproar grows and the crowd melds and begins to move in unison, the fans, the band, all one. . . Suddenly it's not a crowd anymore. It has become something else entirely. You can't describe it, but you know its composition. It is Theron Sapp and Mike Castronis; Buck Belue and Lewis Grizzard; Craig Hertwig and Cowboy Parish and Preston Riddlehuber. Larry, and "Loran, whatta ya got?" Ray the quarterback and Ray the coach. Squab the equipment manager and Jake Scott. Hell, it's Hershel Walker the Endzone Stalker, and Vince Dooley and Joel Eaves, with a little bit of Wally Butts and Erk Russell thrown in. It's "He's got a man open - - he's gonna throw a long bomb! and "Look at the sugar falling from the sky!" It's Robert Edwards tight-ropin' down in the corner, and he got in there! And Verron Haynes stepping down in Knoxville with the winning catch.
It's every friend you ever sat with through a game on a Saturday in Athens, Georgia.

And suddenly, what moments ago was merely a crowd has transformed into an indomitable entity ; a juggernaut of energy and pride that streams into the stadium like smoke from a battery of double-barreled canon.

It's game time, and so we press - -
into the Temple of the Dawg, we enter;
a huge machine in Red and Black.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

6 years go by, I feel like I've blinked

Today is always a difficult day for me, for my family.

Six years ago today my father gave his life in place of someone he didn't know. He rushed to the aid of two young girls he'd never clapped eyes on before. He was Superman.

Superman fell.

It seems impossible to write those words. Six years later and I still stare in disbelief every time I see the words that say my dad - my hero - died on July 2, 2003. It's impossible. Yes, I can tell the story now without crying, usually, but I still sit in disbelief that the man who represented strength, honor, compassion, love and life to me is no longer here. I've written many times here of my pain. How this event has changed my family. How we try to cope and it's a daily process.

I want to also convey that my dad was such a special person, and the things that make him special aren't all wrapped up in the story of how he died.

He was such a funny man. Hilarious. He would laugh out loud at TV and that happened a lot because like me and Clay, he was a huge fan of reality TV. The man even watched my mom's favorite soap opera for years with her (she taped it every day), to the point where we would tease him for knowing more about Tad and Dixie and Adam and Erica than mom or I did. I can remember rushing home from church on Sunday nights when I was young so we could watch some game show that came on during church - we would tape it and watch it as a family when we got back. It had some giant light up keyboard and you used it to solve puzzles.



Dad loved people fully. He was always quick with a hug - with me he would always scratch my back while he hugged me. It was our little thing. I don't get hugged like that, or even really at all any more. If he cared about you - you knew it. There was no hidden admiration, no macho bravado that impaired the expression of the love, respect or friendship he felt for you. He would move heaven and earth to get to someone who needed his help - whether he knew you or not. He taught me how to be a friend.

Speaking of friends - dad never met a stranger. My mom used to say he never went anywhere without meeting someone to talk to. I can remember many trips to places like Home Depot where we all stood around waiting for dad to wrap a conversation he was having with someone he just met. You'd never have known that he didn't know them for years. He was such a gregarious guy, people were just drawn in.

He also held a special affection for the people Clay and I were close to, Allison, Elaine and Beth were just as likely as I was to be pulled over to dance with Dad randomly, because a song came on that he liked. He taught us to ballroom dance, showed us line dances and kept us laughing through out. Those girls were and are my best friends and he loved them as if they were his own. I hate that my dad didn't get to see Allison and Joel get married and that he never saw their girls, my precious Stella and beautiful baby Brooke. He didn't see Patty and Bill get married and never met sweet baby Anna. He won't be there when Beth marries Kevin, hasn't been able to help Nora, and by extension Beth and I, cope with her illness. He couldn't give advice to Elaine when she went through a difficult and sad time or even just be there to hug her and say it would all be okay. I believe though that he knows all these thing, that he is part of them because he is still such a part of my life. I believe that some of the wisdom he showed in life has passed on to me and that I share it with them as we go through life together. They share my pain at the loss of this man who showed us how to be silly, taught us about lasting friendship and why the family you choose is just as important as the family you get by the grace of God. I'm so thankful he taught me to appreciate my friends, because without these women - I would not have survived the last six years.



Finally - the greatest gift my dad, my parents, gave me was the gift of my brother, my best friend. He's been through hell learning to be a man without the best role model. He's tirelessly taken care of our mother's every need from moving, to helping with her new house, to making sure she and I don't kill each other when we get into our famous brawls, we're too much alike, and he's just like my dad. He's our peacemaker. He's been there for me, he's cried with me, been the strong shoulders that have picked up the load of problems I used to leave with my dad.


I'm so blessed to have been given the family I have. We're forever changed by what happened to my dad, but forever blessed to have been loved by the greatest man I've ever known.

I miss you, William E. Jones, dad. I love you and I am who I am because of you.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

sara recaps our NOLA trip ...

I'm a bad blogger. I've been so busy I haven't updated here hardly at all. I suck. Sorry.

Anyway...you can check out info on our trip to NOLA this weekend ... over at Sara's Blog


Friday I head out with Nora, Beth, Janna, Terri and Allison for the bachelorette weekend part 1 up at Deep Creek, MD and it is going to be cold.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

NOLA here I come

I just won a free trip to NOLA from work! OMG.

I immediately thought of Sara and asked her if she'd like to come along as I know how much she loves the city.

We're headed out the last week of March - who'da thunk it?

Thursday, February 12, 2009

The woes of an aspiring fiction novelist!

inspiration struck. Just now... I'm writing again! YAY

Sunday, January 25, 2009

SAG Awards - Live Blogging

Yes. I know I still haven't written up my Inauguration posts, but I'm sick. Deal.


Intros:
Jane Krakowski. Seriously stop jumping like a fool

Ralph Fiennes. So hot. OMG.

Slumdog chick looks gorgeous in purple.

Oh and my Beautiful Kate is gorgeous too!

Forest Whitaker creeps me out with his wanky eye, but I love his acting.

Brad Pitt looks smarmy with his porn stache.

Laura Linney is radiant.

Amy Adams shouldn't wear that color.

I also hate Teri Hatcher's dress.

OH SPY DADDY! I love Victor Garber!

I <3 the SAG Awards:

Female in a comedy series:
Winner: Tina Fey
Should have won: Tina Fey
Annoyed by: Tracy Ullman (as always)

Okay - Tina's dress is much better than the one from the globes where I feared her "globes" would come out.

Seriously - the Slumdog chick is GORGEOUS and I love her gown!

I'm kind of over 30 rock winning every TV Comedy award. Its kind of Seinfeld/Frasier-ish now that that's happening.

Oh look! Evan Rachel Wood still isn't Goth! Who Knew?

Do we really need the Trailblazers video reel? And did it really just have Haley Joel Osment in it? And John Travolta in drag for Hairspray? Come on.

Love Claire Danes dress .... from the front.

Comedy Ensemble Cast:
Winner: 30 Rock
Should have won: The Office
Annoyed by: Desperate Housewives being nominated and Jane Krakowski for being born.

Okay - I'm going to be seriously bitter if no one will go see Frost/Nixon with me soon. BITTER. This is assuming I ever get well before the Oscars.

Is Greg Kinnear still relevant?

Female Actor in a Supporting Role:
winner: Kate Winslet
should have won: Kate Winslet
annoyed by: Penelope Cruz who always makes me think of a rat.

I love how casual the SAG awards are!

Male Actor in a Dramatic Series:
winner: Hugh Laurie
should have won: Hugh Laurie (yay!)
annoyed by: William Shatner. All I hear is the priceline commercial.

I want Christina Applegate's necklace. Don't love the style of the dress, but love the color.

Okay Michelle Phiffer just looked really good.

Ah John Krasinski... LOVE!

Female Actor in a Drama Series:
winner: Sally Field
should have won: Sally Field
annoyed by: how bad they make Holly Hunter look on Saving Grace - she's beautiful. Also, why in the name of God is Kyra Sedgwick's southern accent so horrible. She's awesome, but the accent SUCKS.

Emile Hirsch makes me think of a cartoon boy. He bothers me. I also can't stop thinking James Franco is always stoned and needs to shave.

I hate Emily Blunt's dress. Hate. Too shiny. Her hair is also way too severe.

Cast in a Drama Series:
winner: Mad Men
should have won: Mad Men (so much buzz had to win something)
annoyed by: Boston Legal still being on the air. Who watches that?

Yay for James Earl Jones! He's awesome. (still freaked out by the wanky eye of Forest while he talks).

Ernest Borgnine freaks me out. He looks like a gross grandpa.

Female Actor in a Miniseries:
winner: Laura Linney (I love her - and she's always gorgeous!)
should have won: Laura Dern
annoyed by: Shirley McLaine. just because.

wow I hate the bow thing on Amy Adams dress. I also really wish it wasn't so demi cup and that it was red or brown, not burgundy. She's beautiful though.

Dude. Marisa Tomei has a giant bow/flower thingy too... WTF! Also...she does not look good in 'Butter' bad call stylist.

Ralph Fiennes is sex on a plate. Love him.

Male Actor in a Supporting Role:
winner: Heath Ledger
should have won: Heath Ledger
annoyed by: The senseless loss of Heath... way too soon.

I love Gary Oldman. So sweet, so moved by emotion.

Dear Brad Pitt: you already have a gross mouth. Don't emphasize it by growing that douchey porn stache around it.

Oh there he is again... Mr. Sex on a Plate - Ralph Fiennes.

Female Actor in a Leading Role:
winner: Meryl Streep. (ugh)
should have won: Kate Winslet
annoyed by: Meryl as usual. Anne Hathaway's teeth.

Angelina looks lovely... even though she is a homewrecker.

I really hate Meryl Streep.

Okay - I'll say it. Katie Holmes looking freaking gorgeous.

Male Actor in a Leading Role:
winner: Sean Penn
should have won: Mickey Rourke
annoyed by: Brad Pitt's wet mouth.

I have no idea what the hell Sean Penn is talking about.

Cast in a Motion Picture:
winner: Slumdog Milionaire
Should have won: Can't totally say since I haven't seen them all
annoyed by: Nothing since this is the end of the show!